[Apologies for not posting any artwork, replying to the kind e-mails/comments]

My mind has been elsewhere for the past few days.
I'm in a state of uncertainty, not knowing what will happen in a couple weeks - if you're staying or going.

I am envious of anyone who doesn't have this problem over their shoulder, and this will go on to be a struggle for as long as you remain a person of 'non-status' in my country. I could only wish we wouldn't have such limitations put on our relationship together, that we would be free to think that you could stay here for as long as you desire, that you could work anywhere without any complications.

But alas, we're not blessed with such privileges, and it is unknown what lies ahead of us. To have our relationship put in someone else's hands is not something I ever thought I'd have to personally experience.

We've had our differences and conflicts but in the end I know we have the same goals when it comes to each other.
I can only wish that you will be granted to stay with me, even if it's only for a few more months.

I know the uncertainty bothers you just as much, and trust me, there's not a night where I go on not thinking about this situation, every day I ponder if it'll be our last; our last movie together, our last walk together, our last piece of artwork together - and it pains me tremendously. To have a day without you, waking up to you, coming home to you, tears me apart.

I've never had so many differences with someone, and so many ups and downs - but in the end, you are truly the one I see myself with, and I can only hope that we can go on to have a bright future together, as a couple, as well as artistically. I can go on to say it is not every day that you go on to meet someone to compliments you as well as we do to each other.

I know we are different in our ways, but in the end, I believe it is our similarities that make us the way we are.

I wouldn't want to spend a day without you, and if that day arises, please ensure that I will do my best to join you as quickly as possible, even just for a few days.

I know the fear as struck you, as to think I would leave you upon our time apart, but please rest assured, that my heart is yours to keep.

M.